cod fish

I've been about my life lately and wondering where I'm headed and what my plans will be when I get there.

I've decided to move to St. John's Newfoundland.

Truth be told I'm running. Running away from the things I cannot seem to change and away from things beyond my control. Maybe I'll discover in my new life that the ghosts of old will still be haunting me but for now I'd like to believe that there is a new and less complicated future waiting for me on the edge of the Atlantic. This isn't about a reinvention of myself but more about an escape from people I love and safety nets that are drowning me. And I suppose its also about believing in all the things I am capable of. I love all of my friends dearly but I feel as though I'm on a loop while they are all on straighter paths. The things that I had expected for myself have not come to fruition and sometimes I cannot bear to think of the next 5 years pondering the same frustrating scenarios. I want new frustrating scenarios. I am so tired of the incestuously murky, unrealistically narrow minded, pathetically short-sighted dating pool in which most of us are swimming. So, I'm off to marry a lighthouse keeper and live at the end of the world.